| The slave Heart Please refresh this page often as I am currently working on it: July 4, 2011 |
The following is the profile of a slave I have recently come to know. I was very moved by what he wrote in his profile. I wanted to share this
profile with some additional comments as a tool to help Masters (and slaves) to understand the true submissiveness that lives in the heart of a slave. The man that
this profile belongs to questions whether he is a slave or not. He is fully aware that his nature is that of a submissive. He lives with and accepts this as truth, which in a sense
haunts him. He might disagree with My feeling that he is in fact a true slave. In any case, it does not matter. What matters with respect to this man's feelings
is that he has become aware of the truth about himself and that is a rare thing in this world. I have a great deal of respect for this persons honesty and tenderness of
heart.
"outsider love boy on the Path to "The Man"....My comments: If you have read the other articles in My site you will know that I do not believe that the word "submissive" should be used in the context of referring to a slave. You will know that I believe the use of the word "sub" in relation to the Master/slave relationship merely describes a characteristic of a slave not the slave itself. A slave, by nature, has a submissive nature but merely having a submissive nature does not a slave make. An example would be My personal partner, Dennis. His basic nature is submissive and gentle but he is not a slave. Having said that I want to comment on what this man has written. First I want to comment on the man's follwing statement: "many lessons learned, yet still the submissive hunger burns (inside.) Throughout My years of studying Myself in order to become a Master I have encountered many slaves who are on a path of slave "enlightenment". I have found that no matter what a true slave encounters throughout their various experiences with Masters (the good and the bad) they cannot shake the inner sense or intuition that they deeply seek fulfillment of life through the offering of themselves (their hearts) to another Man. Many slaves that I have encountered, especially those over the age of 25, inevitably find themselves in a place of discouragement and a loss of hope that the will ever find their hearts desire. These men have the most incredibly strong hearts. Their courage to press on regardless of discoouraging experiences is a model of stamina for the rest of us. I can attest to the fact that to the true slave that has not found fulfillment experiences a burning hunger inside of them. At some point in their lives they realize and are faced with the irrepressible fact that they have no choice but to accept that their true nature is submissive slavery. The truth is power. Falsehood is force. Force can never overcome power. The power of the heart, when it is realized; when it is open; is one of the Wonders of the World. Too bad that few ever know the experience. i've been here before and left, tired of all the "online games"...This man decries the bullshit that he has encountered on the Internet. Something I have written about extensively. I do not mislead Myself into thinking that anything I write will decrease the BS. However, this man is correct. Regardless of the bullshit certain sites on the Internet (such as Collarme, Recon, slave4Master) clearly define the state of the gay condition and specifically the Master/salve relationship. Moreover, and probably most importantly, this man states that regardless of his awareness of the BS, he finds some solace...some ground...some awareness that he is drawn to these sites becuase of his nature. It has been My overwhelming experience that many slaves live thier daily lives in a sort of fog-like normality always aware of the center of their being...submissiveness in connection with being gay. What this man states represents, to Me, what the human heart looks like (or sounds like) when the owner of it allows the vulnerable characteristics of it to become exposed. Greater than any work of art man has ever created this is beauty beyond what most of us ever encounter in our lifetimes. it's amazing to me how deeply private the truth, the vulnerability of the intense submissive hunger really is....I have only encountered this sort of raw heart-felt truth in My own search through Buddhism. His sensitivity to the awareness of the truth within him is astounding to say the least. Many people on the path to Buddhism (with a lot of soul searching) discover these gentle emotions emenating from their hearts. Very few however can label them in such a way as this man. To be able to label is to know and to understand. To a slave, the truth of his beingness is a VERY private matter. How wonderfully simple and precise this man explains his nature; the vulnerability and intense submissive hunger. While poetic, his statement reveals a deep inner understanding of his own heart. A treasure few ever see or realize. "for myself, it begins and ends through the connection to a Man....the presence of an innate Dominant Energy/Force that is a gift to behold, feel and bathe in when the connection is real"Even though this man does not use a capital letter when referring to himself he chose to use capital letters when describing the "Dominant Energy/Force". To the true slave the desire to give their heart to another Man whome they discern as a natural dominant energy force is a gift to them. As a Master I cannot nor will I ever experience this. But I have seen many examples of men, that are very submissive, change their entire character when they are around a dominant force such as this man describes; they are truly drawn like a moth to a flame. That he used the phrase, "...bathe in" is revealing becuase this is exactly what the slave experiences...a sort of warmth in their souls; a feeling of belonging. A slave lives with three big questions that haunt him endlessly: "Who am I?", "Where am I going? "What is the purpose of my life." I think that most people ask those sorts of questions in their lives and so therefore is not uncommon. However, when those words are murmured within the human context of being a slave these same questions become sort of haunting background music or noise. These men truly need the connection in order to feel complete and to know that their life has a true purpose. Who can say why this is? Who can answer those questions but the slave himself when he has at last found a connection? and how much i've learned here from interaction both good and bad... "the dream", for someone like me, hardwired, "heart throbbed" into me seemingly from birth...is to belong to/with/for one Man....it's one thing to be One Man's whore, it's another to be one to the world....i have no interest in that and never have....i feel, and always have, that i was born to belong to One Man... the fact that i have not found him yet has been discouraging, disheartening and at times downright confusing and dare is say "agonizing"....but no matter how much i lose faith, want to "give up....again, the deeper truth rises and remains..."He begins this part of his poetic profile with the acknowledgment that he has experienced and learned from both the good and bad. In My experience this is typical of slaves who are aware of a deep inner sense of their nature; they experience a series of "encounters" and pseudo-relationships which never seem to work out. Each relationship may have some "good" aspects to them but there never seems to be any relationship that is quite right. Not that these people set out to look for the perfect relationship; they just cannot seem to put their finger on why things don't seem to work out for them. The reason is that, unlike this fellow, many slaves have not reached a point in their understanding and awareness that they realize their nature is "hardwired" into their psyche from birth. This man's profile is a perfect example of how a slave thinks. Being owned or belonging to One Man is more than just a fleeting desire or dream; they need it and think about it more than anything else; at times forcing themselves to think and do other things purposely to keep their minds off of it. However, each time they try searching; each time they step forward to take a chance and fail, the discouragement grows to the point of sometimes experiencing agony. Because these men ARE hardwired they way they are, the trudge on in an endless quest for thier knight. With each attempt; with each failure they get off the ride and return to the line an wait to get on again. So it goes, like a carnival ride, 'round and 'round. They know its a ride, but the deeper truth remains, "...i've been here before and left, tired of all the "online games"...but the truth is, i return, because this site represents, reflects something so much deeper than sex." The unfortunate truth for many of these men is that they experience so much discouragement that it eventually becomes quite dificult for them to commit to a Man once they have found them. Years go by and these slaves cope by digging into attachements in this world. They often time have homes, long-held jobs and so they unwittingly become their own prisoners trapping themselves in their own lives. Another facet of the result of their disappointments is that they begin to not only lose faith in themselves, but they begin to lose faith in others to such a degree that each person they meet goes under an immediate microscope. Each one of their own desires begins to work against them whereby they become amplified. Inevitably they build a set of requisites that can hardly be met. At the same time they also have the propensity for becoming rigid in their views with regard to not only thier own lives but their opinions about what they will accept in others as well. Sometimes this change is so gradual that the person is not aware that they are changing but they wonder why things never seem to go their way. All in all, the man writing in this profile happens to be quite astute at knowing himself; which is a rarity indeed. As a Master I have a deep attraction to this person and as a human being a deep sense of compassion because I understand the depth of this individual's yearing for release from his bonds and a desire to realize a dream to find another human being that understands him. i have never felt more real and soulful than when down on my knees with a Man towering over me....(i have been blessed this experience, connection fleetingly, yet forever it has taught and led me back.....)This man's statement really struck Me as a person who was more slave-like than he realizes. A lot of true slaves have difficulty with using the word "slave" in context of describing themselves. Some think it is an unecessary label and while this certainly is true, the use of the word slave for a Master tends to make it easy to describe the type of individual He is interested in. Use of the word does not go far enough to describe the nature of the slave. I do believe that this particular individual has very strong slave-like tendencies but he is more likely somewhere between a true slave and a very deeply submissive male. It is interesting that he uses words so dear to those who readily declare that they are slaves. Again, I cannot help but feel genuine compassion for this person becuase I know that his words are true with respet to his sense of being "acutely awae" that when everything is said and done and he evaluates his life and his accomplishments he realizes that what he is ultimately left with is a sense of emptiness. Life in this age gives us many things...mostly choices...do we really need all these choices? Life in this age also gives us something that we unwittingly become trapped in and that is distraction. Our culture makes it so easy for us to distract ourselves away from the truth of life...the true nature of things. Often times we are not even aware of this except when we are forced by our own nature to experience the harsh truth of it all. We are all connected and people need people. The reason so many slaves experience the same feelings as this man is becuase they are caught up in the stuff of life they are not cognizant of when they cross the line where they actually think that the "stuff" of life, or in their lives IS their life! There is no out there...out there. There is nothing outside of oursleves that can replace the needs of the personal nature of our beingness. Sooner or later our inborn nature will force us to see the truth about ourselves. The real crime again ones own humanity...the real sin (not that I believe in such a thing) is when a human being goes against their own nature for the sake of something that has literally no spiritual value (meaning value to their lives...thier inner nature). One day, and do not be fooled into thinking you will not have to face it, you will be at that place where we all must experience and that is the day we give up our homes, bank accounts, credit cards...all of our posessions when we leave this plane of existence. Suddenly and most unfortunately, that is when we realize that a lifetime spent on the "stuff" in our lives was a foolish and superfluous exercise in futility. There is nothing outside of yourself that is going to replace what you instrinsically need to be happy and happiness is the purpose of life. Whether this man is stating that the "gift of allowance" is with regard to another Man allowing him to give himself or whether, in some spiritual sense, that he was being allowed by some Divine action to have such a thing, is unclear. Either way this is another strong emotion typical of the natural slave whose desire it is to "give" as a gift of himself and his achievements to one he is able to respect and love...like a Master. yes, i have my perverted, kinky, nasty streak...(prone to an almost "pavlovian" hunger for verbal commands and certain words like "bitch" (the hard on) and "boy" (the heart)...but it all means very little without connection to the heart of the truth that there can still beat love and hope in my heart...that maybe some Man out there can understand and see, the gift that could be found when innately dominant and submissive join together to form "we".....WOW! Pesonally, I am not a real mushy sort of guy but, this man's words make Me WANT to give My heart to him? So why is he still alone? If I feel this way certainly there are others who do as well...someone...you would think? I can offer an answer. It is, of course, strictly My opinion, but I have had enough experience with slaves to understand what is likely happening here and why this man has not found a connection to another Man. Work with Me here. Open your mind for a moment without prejudice or bias from having read this man's profile. In general, our culture is not one that foments (encourages) obvious displays of emotion. Neither does it encourage people to be independent of one another, although we think we are. Our culture is more interested in advancing the "herd" mentality. It is by far much easier to manage an enormous population by getting them to purchase the same clothes, cars, appliances, computers, phones and a million other items. If you are different; if you do not follow the herd; if you are noticeably unlike others; if your ideas and concepts about life are not in line with herd mentality you stick out of the crowd. People, such as this man, who say (at the end of the profile) "...fuck the game", have a need to voice their inner emotions and philosophy are not as popular as those who follow the rest of the herd; who is uncomfortable "assimilating to any given "scene or pack"". Why? Because for most people it appears that they demand too much...appear too needy. The truth is that our culture is designed so that the members of the herd do not have to over-exert themselves to be responsible for their own lives. People, such as the man who wrote this profile, in a way and by their own nature, demand that others take respsonsibility for themselves. Above and beyond all of that people are not ready to accept the concept of permanence or commitment for a lifetime. It is no secret that we are a throw-away society who have become spoiled by all of the choices we have available to us; who have become used to a sense of entitlement. This man's efforts to explain himself and call out to that ONE that he hopes is listening...is too much work...it's too much reality...doesn't sound like fun...and by-god demands that his receiver take some responsibility for the gift he is offering. Food for thought folks. Dom/Sub, Sadist/Masochist, Man/boy...You/I like two halves making whole...So at the end of his profile he defines himself as a "boy". A very, naturally submissive boy with the propensity for a strong leaning toward being a slave. I suspect that the reason he does not refer t himself as a slave is becuase he has decided that the elements of his life; his achievements and responsibilities; do not put him into the class of a slave. Whether this is true or not I cannot say. However, I have known of one significant example of a man who, for all intent and purpose, according to his achievements and responsibilities, would never be considered a slave. This man was an exemplary slave. In fact each night he chose to sleep in the doorway of his Master's bedroom to protect his Master while He was sleeping. Each morning, this slave would get dressed in his $3000 suits and $1000 shoes and wait for his limousine to pick him up and bring him to the office where he was the Chief executive Officer of a multi-billion dollar multi-national corporation. Yet, each evening he returned to his Master's home to serve Him and no one else. I do not believe that a slave's station in life has a single thing to do with being a slave. I have known slaves who were CHP (California Highway Patrol) and officers in the US Armed Forces. Can't you just hear a sense of lonliness when this man says that he goes to work and he comes home (such an empty home) day in and day out...and despite this monotony, the dream remains the same...albeit unfulfilled. How he dreams of one day rushing home impatiently after work so he can be with that One. Slipping that key into the door, or opening the garage door...turning the doorknob knowing that there is life on the other side...a life who waits for him. In that one statement he tells us of his dreams to submitt himself to someone who cares what he has to say and knows it is not the mere echo of his own voice. This is something Master's (hell everyone) should understand about the nature of a submissive person. It is difficult going through life with the prospects that no one ever knows you...never really knows who and what you are. That is important for the human species from the lowest form to the highest. Not that I believe this person would relegate themselves to deceitful behavior if the tables were turned and he had everything to lose. I think his statement is more one of frustration and a hopeless feeling. I however, beg to difffer with his statement that he has nothing left to lose. This person's emotions are very rare in this age. Perhaps it should be stated that his courage to express his emotions is actually more rare. I think he has a great deal to lose. I think it is a shame that this man is alone because he has so much to offer another Man. In many ways this entire profile spells out the drama of a submissive individual seeking happiness in a world that does not want to take the time to notice. I however, do. Thanks for reading. Hope this article helped to make you more aware of the nature of the true slave/submissive. Master Rick © Master Rick, Reno, Nevada 2011 |